This storm will pass, and I will be bruised from it.
But Ill be alive.
And Ill breathe deeper than ever before.
Milada Vigerova
Like maybe if we hadnt met, I wouldnt feel this way right now.
We met at the right time for me and the wrong time for you.
And you were that person.
I cant thank you enough for that.
And whoever in the future has theabsolutepleasure of being my partner will have to thank you too.
I wish this wasnt where we were.
But I cant change your mind.
You always made fun of me for being stubborn, but now Ill turn that mirror back to you.
The truth is, this reallycouldbe the best thing for you right now.
And I know that.
You might never come to that conclusion; there is no telling the future here.
Only my head running in endless circles.
I want you to know that though Im gone now, I think of you all the time.
I hope that this process heals you, makes you feel more whole than you ever have.
I hope you might wake up every morning feeling calm, loved, full, and completely yourself.
Ill miss you when I inevitably put too much sriracha on my brussel sprouts.
Ill miss you every time I drink coffee, every time I drive on 6th street.
Our love was something I never expected.
I never saw you coming; I never thought Id be at this place.
But I am, and thats what makes this hurt so deep right now.
I feel broken, wounded, and Ill have to pick that up by myself.
I cant lean on you for that.
If you feel that you need it.
But it wont change that I love you.
Wont change that I care.
Ill heal, dont worry.
Im an unbelievable force of a person.
I can barrel through any situation.
But I dont want to do that now.
Ill wait for the sunrise, nursing my bruises and licking my wounds.
Physically, I will do this alone.
But youll be there, in the back of my head.
The warmth from that sun will wash over me and me alone.
In my own space, in my own time, I will feel hope.
I will feel freedom.
