What you want isn’t friendship.
And that’s okay.
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Updated 6 years ago,May 9, 2019
But you dont want to lose the friendship.
Toa Heftiba
To keep a long story short, I fell for him.
And he did not feel the same way.
Despite the unrequited love, I still hung on to what we had:friendship.
We remained extremely close.
He looked out for me and supported me, and I did the same for him.
I mean, couldnt he change his mind?
Toa Heftiba
The short answer is no.
And it fucking sucked.
When reality demanded I come back to earth, it hurt like hell.
He wasnt changing his mind, he felt how he felt, and that was that.
Despite what heartbreak may tell you, you really cant convince someone to love you.
You cant hope your way into their heart.
Sitting next to him hurt.
Hearing about his day hurt.
Listening to him laugh hurt.
To many people, it would be.
It would be considered selfish to throw away a friendship because you developed feelings.
It would be dramatic.
It would be giving up.
But why does that have to be the case?
Because if what you want isnt friendship, then what are you really losing?
After all, you want a relationship.
You want to know their coffee order by heart and know their darkest parts and still love them anyway.
What you want isnt friendship.And thats okay.
By walking away, you are not being selfish.
And if theyre really your friend, theyll understand that.
But this is not to say that it always has to be a permanent departure.
Maybe things can change.
Its okay to hope for that, too.
But in the end, if thats not something you’re free to do, thats okay.
Its not that youre weak or selfish.
Youre simply a human being who had to let go.
