I wish I could let you know just how much your presence in my life means to me.
I want to tell you how I have liked you since the first day I ever saw you.
You caught my eye long before we became such good friends.
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I would rather stay silent than lose you.
We are so similar that sometimes I wonder if all of this is just too good to be true.
You get me, and that is not something I can say about a lot of people.
And sometimes, I am just a lot.
But you never seem to be bothered by any of that.
You have always let me be myself, and for that, I am so grateful.
I was so sure for so long that you liked me, too.
And yet, when you finally had your chance to pursue something with me, you shut down completely.
I felt so stupid for thinking that someone like you would ever be interested in someone likeme.
You are always so composed, while I am more like chaos in the form of a human being.
If you had known, would your answer have been any different?
Sometimes, I really want to ask you that question.
Once we have that conversation, there is no going back.
We cannot pretend that we do not know each others true feelings.
Is it better to have you as just a friend than to not have you at all?
Some days, the answer to that question is yes, while others, it is no.
Do you ever spend your days wondering about this, too?
I swear, if you asked me right now to marry you, I would say yes.
Commitment has always been something I feared, but with you, it doesnt seem so bad.
A life with you would mean a life with one of my closest friends.
I would be so lucky.
