Stop keeping people at arms length, and forgiveness far from your heart.
Stop thinking you dont deserve to be light and happy and weightless again.
Because you do, sweet thing.
Hanna Morris
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Updated 7 years ago,May 28, 2018
I can tell youre hurting.
You close your eyes and relive all the painful memories from your past before you fall asleep.
You wake up with negative thoughts roaming purposelessly in your head.
You listen to songs on the radio and associate pain with every lyric.
You stare at old pictures with emptiness thick and tangible in your chest.
All the heaviness of your past is weighing down on you.
Hanna Morris
You cant quite shake the nervousness in your stomach, sinking slowly like an anchor.
You havent quite learned how to forgive others, to forgive yourself.
Youre not allowing yourself to move from the space youre in.
Youre not giving someone the chance to comfort you, touch the places where you are hurting.
Youre not letting yourself be lovedby you, by anyone.
Youre resisting anything that looks remotely like healingand why?
Why are you so convinced this painful place is where youre meant to be?
Why are you so scared to break and rebuild, to truly feel again?
Why have you told yourself that youre unworthy of starting over, starting new?
I know you feel tired, mentally and physically.
And maybe you dont want to.
But you dont have to cling to what is only pulling you down.
I know youre scared.
Scared of what was.
Scared of what could go wrong.
Scared of what may happen next.
I know youre struggling to walk away, your body so tightly twisted around the past and the pain.
But this is no way to live, not anymore.
I know it hurts, but its time to let yourself be loved.
Stop holding onto what isnt growing youpeople, relationships, memories, what has been lost.
Stop telling yourself youre supposed to feel like this, broken and tired.
Stop wishing for things that have happened.
Stop keeping people at arms length, and forgiveness far from your heart.
Stop thinking you dont deserve to be light and happy and weightless again.Because you do, sweet thing.
Its time to let yourself heal.
Its time to stop remembering how you were hurt, and start focusing on how you might get better.
Its time to stop wishing for a past relationship, and searching for a new one.
Its time to stop beating yourself up over what you cant change, and looking to what youcan.
Its time to stop believing this is a good as it gets, because it will get better.
Open yourself to relationships, to laughter, to emotion once again.
Start believing in connections again, real ones that arent looking to break you, but to build you.
Start feeding yourself positive energy so that you might forgive and love yourself again.
Let yourself be loved.
And given a chance to face this world again, only this time stronger.
This time happier, because that is how you have chosen to be from now on.
Life will hand you obstacles.
Life will give you relationships that are impermanent and people who will fail you.
But dont let the negativity keep you from feeling love.
You were meant to love and be loved.So let yourself.
