Just once, I want to give my all to someone who will give me theirs in return.
I dont want to doubt whether or not Im the only person on their mind.
I want to go to sleep knowing that late night conversations will turn into good morning texts.
Pexels / Leah Kelley
Boy makes it seem like he likes girl back.
Girl forgets all the times shes been burned in the past.
Girl thinks this time, things might actually last.
Boy makes girl feel special.
Girl looks at boy like hes the answer to every prayer.
Girl tries to be strong and play along.
Girl thinks she can change his mind.
But deep down, girl knows boy will never utter the words, I want you to be mine.
And still, girl tells herself over and over that its fine.
Boy gets bored and thinks this is dragging on too long.
Boy doesnt call anymore and stops coming around.
Girl doesnt understand what went wrong.
Girl thought boy would catch her when she finally hit the ground.
But just once, I want to be more than the almost girl.
The nows not the right time girl.
The look at what we could have been girl.
The I like you, but not enough to stay girl.
Just once, I dont want to second guess someones intentions.
I want to know that Im not crazy for thinking that I love you means exactly that.
I dont want to sit here like a mad woman over-analyzing every single word theyve ever said.
I want actions to hold true, promises to be kept.
I want to know that they wont stop talking to me out of the blue.
I want to go to sleep knowing that late night conversations will turn into good morning texts.
I want to know that their fingers are only laced through mine.
Just once, I dont want to pretend to be something Im not.
Just once, I want more than casual.
I want to feel like Im caught up in more than just some silly cat and mouse game.
I dont want to sacrifice my happiness just to satisfy theirs.
I dont want to feel crazy for saying I want to be more than friends.
Just once, I want someone whos willing to put effort into something real.
Just once, I want something that isnt so damn complicating.
I want to know that Im not wasting my time on something that isnt going anywhere.
Just once, I dont want to doubt myself.
Just once, I want to feel wanted every day of the week.
Just once, I dont want to turn into strangers in the blink of an eye.
