My eating disorder is unrelenting, terrible, and LOUD.
It is not even really existing.
What it is, is dying.
Taylor L. Spurgeon
But it is not quick and to the point.
It is slow and torturous, and yet all too fast at the same time.
But it is more than that; it is not just a captivating whirlwind of death and dying.
And the evil, it has a voice.
I know I sound crazy, saying that an eating disorder can speakbut that is the thing, itiscrazy.
So I, along with many others, have named my eating disorder, Ed.
Taylor L. Spurgeon
Ed hisses lies and threatening commands into your ears.
And the more you obey him, the more sense his lies start to make.
Ed is unrelenting, terrible, and LOUD.
Oh gosh, is he loud.
His screeching voice makes you crumble and you would do anything to quiet him down.
Or so he thinks.
And this is where the key to the cage he has you locked in becomes visible.
There is one thing in this world louder than the voice of Ed.
One and only one thing.
But he is not the one talking right now, I am.
And Im going to tell you exactly what it is.
The only thing that is louder than the voice of an eating disorder is the voice of LOVE.
It is simple, but complex.
Its transformative, and it creates miracles where all hope had been lost.
But Ed is smart, tricky, and conniving.
And man, is he convincing.
He screams hate at the top of his lungs so loudly that we start to become the hate ourselves.
But love is gentle, and patient, and kind.
And most importantly love does not give up.
Love will just keep coming back, louder, and with new strategies.
If you slam the door in loves face, it will come in through the window.
Hate is powerful, but hate has a limit.
Hate can only grow so big, only be so loud… before it plateaus.
And love, love knows no boundaries.
Love will meet you right where you are, and love will bring you home.
Love is louder than the voice of your eating disorder ever will be.
And if you keep fighting, eventually love will fight for you, and most of all, love.
it will set you free.
And you, dearly beloved, deserve to be free.
