I will stay positive for both of us.
This time has shown me that we can find serenity just being quiet sitting near each other.
If we can overcome this, we can probably overcome a lot.
God & Man
You look so peaceful.
I wonder what you are dreaming of, if you still are.
I let you enjoy the precious moments till you awake.
You wake up with a frown, unsure of what the day holds for you.
It is another bright morning as we are stuck inside our apartment like the rest of the world.
I know you are sad, but I miss the sparkle your eyes once had.
I touch the back of your neck and you scrunch up your shoulders.
I come to hold you from the back and your body stiffens.
Lately, mornings have been difficult for you, especially now when it is challenging for most of us.
I can see it is harder for you than probably most people I know.
I watch you work, wondering how the rest of your day will go.
I wish there was something I could do to change things for you.
Your excitement for food seems to have diminished like your appetite for life that you once had.
You used to be so happy.
We look out at the little pond, often visited by three ducks.
Sometimes they are all together and sometimes there is only one.
Hours seem to go by too fast or too slow for you.
That fleeting moment passes too fast.
I tell you anyway, and you look at me with your disappointed eyes.
You tell me there is nothing that bad in your life, and I know that is true.
I know you try hard to stay positive.
I do not know the answer, but for you, I wish I did.
I want you to find that inner happiness.
I wonder if being quarantined together has solidified our relationship.
I will stay positive for both of us.
This time has shown me that we can find serenity just being quiet sitting near each other.
If we can overcome this, we can probably overcome a lot.
It took me a long time to understand that I may never fully understand.
I know it is not easy for you.
I know if it were easy, you would have already done something about it.
Youre not choosing sadness; sadness chose you, and it is beyond your control.
I wont give up on you when you are going through a hard time.
This story isnt even about you.
It is my story.
It is how I see myself through your eyes.
I wish I could tell you how much I love you and I wish I could be better.
I wish I could tell you how sorry I am for how I am and how I have been.
I wish I could let go of my sadness and enjoy this beautiful life with you.
I wish I could feel the joy in living my life with you.
I wish I could be less like me and more like you.
I know you are staying positive for both of us.
At a time like this, if its love, it will absolutely look like this.
Thank you for loving me through my sadness.
The ducks name is Happy.
