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Updated 6 years ago,June 22, 2019
I dont know how to be anythingother than intense.All in.Too much.Too involved.I dont know how to be an almostor anything in between.But theres a price you paywhen you cant settle for the middlebecause when youre so fixated ona certain kind of loveyou become so good at letting go,kissing people goodbye,holding someones handonly to unclasp your fingers,getting so dangerously closeonly to create a safer distance,catching yourself before you fallbecause youre not so sureif they will catch you.And you dont know how to half-love someoneor have bits and pieces of their heart,You only know how to love with all your heartand want the same in return.So I got used to it all,you know leaving,moving on,being on my own,searching for answers,walking my journey alonebecause as much as I want tohold someones handas I climb the mountainand as much as I want toshare the view with someone,I dont know how to balance myselfif Im not the only one.I dont know how to launch the doorif I have one foot out.So it doesnt get to me anymorewhen people call me too dreamy,too romantic,too idealistic,or too muchbecause theres a price you paywhen you dont know how tosettle,you spend a lot of time waiting,you spend a lot of time alone,you dont always have a hand to hold,you dont always have someone to callbut for some reason, you wait it out,because you have faith that one of those daysyour too muchness will bejust enoughfor the right person.
Ieva Urenceva
