Im just being honest.
There are people who I wish I could shake (metaphorically.
not looking to get an assault charge in the name of radical honesty tbh.)
Benny Jackson
But is that my place?
The truth is no one wants to hear advice they didnt ask for, no matter how honest.
2.I dont think being sensitive is a bad thing.
How much of our feelings, our reactions, our perceptions, are solely on us?
Isnt being sensitive, and maintaining said sensitivity, your own responsibility?
Are other people responsible for walking around your softness?
For treading lightly with feelings that you might only have etc?
I think Ive always been worried about coming off the wrong way.
Ive been called intimidating so many times Ive lost track.
So how much of that is my fault?
How much of that is me, and how much of that is someone else being sensitive?
Ive always hated looking for the line between walking on eggshells and being too harsh.
Sometimes I think we all blur it.
3.I think we all like to pretend more things are personal than actually are.
We didnt get the gig because the hiring manager just liked someone more than us.
We were fired because someone just had it out for us.
I think we all like to believe that people are thinking about us more than they actually are.
I think its easier to take.
If the reason boils down to something personal, then there isnt anything we can change.
A personal reason absolves us of any accountability.
Because you cant change what someone might just personally feel, right?
But really, when you think about it, is anything really personal?
I dont think so.
That the majority of the time, its not personal.
And is isnt personal.
No matter how many ways you attempt to look at it, its just not.
4.I was never good at math in school.
Even basic addition I still struggle with.
I count on my fingers.
Calculator is one of my most frequent Google searches.
I triple check data before sending it out to anyone.
How theyre all just math.
How everything can be broken down and solved if you really take the time to dissect them.
And so on so forth.
And thats equal parts calming and honestly, boring.
Or maybe I just really sucked at long division.
(Its probably that.)
And whats worse than that, they might be happy being ignorant.
They might enjoy sharing things that are at best questionable and at worst completely fabricated on Facebook.
They like not having to face the fact that not voting results in things like a Trump in office.
Over the last 6 months, a distance has started to be formed between some people and me.
A distance that is undeniably created by difference.
I used to be able to empathize.
I used to be able to take a deep breath and be more understanding.
I am losing patience for it.
I am losing patience for the willingness to not take a stand on things.
Maybe this is me.
Maybe the onus of my lack of patience is on me.
Or maybe enough is enough sometimes.
And that, in and of itself, is enough.
