Knowing we werent meant to last doesnt take away any of the pain.
It doesnt make my heart heal any faster.
Losing you hurts like hell.
Molnár Bálint
Its hard to see a bright side or a silver lining, at least from where Im currently standing.
Maybe sometime in the future, Ill be able to look back at this moment and be thankful.
Maybe this will be the exact point where my entire world changes for the better.
Maybe everyone is right when they keep telling me this is a good thing.
But right here, right now, my existence feelsmiserable.
Its a struggle to survive without you.
Every breath brings me pain.
Every heartbeat feels like a waste when youre not here to press your ear against my chest.
Maybe we were never meant to last but we made so much sense together.
You brought me so much peace and comfort and friendship.
You supported me through my darkest, most inescapable moments.
Whether I was feeling hopeless or angry or upset, you never flinched at my nastiest emotions.
You could handle everything thrown at you and you didnt act like you werehandlingme at all.
You acted like it was a privilege to be near me.
And I felt the same way about you.
I still, do.
Maybe we were meant to be temporary.
Maybe every moment in our relationship meant something, but our separation means something, too.
Just because were parting doesnt mean were going to forget each other.
It doesnt mean were going to start badmouthing each other and forget how much we cared about each other.
Just because our love story is over doesnt mean it never happened.
Our memories arent going anywhere.
However, knowing this is the right thing doesnt make it any easier.
Knowing, in the long-run, were going to be fine without each other doesnt bring me any peace.
Maybe we were always meant to be temporary but losing you stillsucks.
Im not going to pretend this is easy on me.
Im not going to act like the transition from your lover to less has been easy on me.
But Im not going to kick and scream about it anymore, either.
Im not going to resist doing whats best for you and best for me.
Maybe we were meant to be temporary but theres a beauty in temporary things.
