My only wish was he never met you because maybe then hed still be alive.
The same questions arise in my mind as they did when I wrote you my first letter years ago.
What were you thinking?
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Was it you that wanted to kill yourself?
Were you looking for attention as the grieving girlfriend?
Were you trying to be some hero?
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You dont prevent suicide through fundraisers after the fact.
You prevent suicide by not encouraging someone to kill themselves.
You prevent suicide by not giving them a list of ways to do it.
You prevent suicide by telling someone what is going on not trying to cover your ass afterward.
I dont care what they say in court to try and justify and defend you.
I dont care how they spin this.
Because yes, it wasnt you that killed Conrad.
But you had the ability to stop him from killing himself.
You made a deliberate choice to do the opposite of what you should have.
You texted your friend that you could have stopped him.
It was your fault.
All of this could have been avoided.
The second he brought up the word suicide you should have told someone.
You didnt just lose a boyfriend.
Someone lost their son.
Someone lost their brother.
Someone lost their teammate.
Someone lost their friend.
And thats what you have to live with regardless of the verdict.
And thats the greater problem here.
That is what we need to teach people isnt true.
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
I hope people learn from your mistakes about what proper suicide prevention actually is.
You could have come out as a hero in all this had you acted rationally and logically.
A true hero is someone does the right thing and doesnt look for attention while doing it.
This story hits very close to me because Ive been where you were in this situation.
But the difference was in the way I handled someone confiding in me about their suicidal thoughts.
I made the most difficult phone call in my entire life to the people who needed to know.
There is nothing more emotional than the parent who thanks you for saving their sons life.
Conrad will never thank you.
His parents will never forgive you.
His sisters will never know what its like to grow up with an older brother.
And he will never be able to fulfill his dreams and future everyone saw even when he couldnt.
