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Updated 4 years ago,April 2, 2021
I dont know what perfect is.
The things in which we believe were incomplete without.
That in their imperfect state they are elusive to us.
And I know that these things rarely come to stay.
We spend too much time reaching, having faith that conditional things will hold up our sense of purpose.
I say purpose rather than happiness because I think thats what were really getting at here.
Happiness is good, but a deep-seeded sense of purpose, belonging, achievement and acceptance is better.
And those are the things we are usually attached to.
But to a fault.
We forget to stop reaching and to start being.
I know this because I grappled with it greatly in my own life.
It was the only floor on which I was left to stand on.
The one I had to build for myself, piece by piece.
The one that I kept dancing around believing that would keep me afloat.
The one I never learned to center myself on.
The one where I found myself on my knees when it all became too much.
These are the things we reach for when its the staying power that will give them to us.
The real work of it all is to realize that some things are just better when theyre imperfect.
The cracks let the light through.
It will be the cause of a lot of your suffering.
But you are always better for having suffered.
An easy, beautiful life does not always make an easy, beautiful person.
There is a depth that suffering delivers you to that is incomparable to anything else.
Youre better off a little heartbroken.
Youre better off having to be reduced to taking literal baby steps in your everyday life to recover.
They will re-introduce you to what really matters.
You should thank them for handing you a part of yourself you wouldnt have found on your own.
Youre better off having some self-doubt.
It keeps you grounded.
It shouldnt limit you, it should keep you attuned to reality.
Youre better off with criticism that you’re able to take seriously.
Youre better off if you question yourself.
You are better off for having to repent.
You become a different person the day you apologize not just so someone else will forgive you.
Youre better off if your self-love is a little messy.
Actually, its messy love in general that really gives us what we want and need.
We know nothing indefinitely if its never challenged.
And your self love is nothing if not grown out of the most pressing situations.
You build it when its the last option.
We cannot keep waiting for perfect.
