I cant blame them for being annoyed with me.
It takes me ages to answer texts.
I rarely follow through on plans.
Toa Heftiba
I only leave the house once in a blue moon.
Im not trying to insult them.
Im not trying to make them feel like they werent good enough for my time.
Im not trying to ruin their day.
Im not trying to be a bitch.
But sometimes, it comes across that way.
Its not like Im going around advertising my anxiety to my friends and family.
I make excuses to make it hide my anxiety.
They assume Im trying to get out of seeing them because they arent important enough to me.
I cant blame them for being annoyed with me.
It takes me ages to answer texts.
I rarely follow through on plans.
I only leave the house once in a blue moon.
In their eyes, it looks like Im a flake.
It looks like I couldnt care less about keeping in contact with them.
It looks like their friendship means nothing to me.
Explaining my anxiety to them might solve everything.
Hurting a friend on accident doesnt change the fact I hurt them.
I still need to apologize.
I still need to set things right.
I still need to take responsibility for my actions.
It makes them think theyre low on my list of priorities.
I have to remember to put effort into the friendships Im hoping to keep forever.
I have to find a way to get the point across in case they forget.
