Every time I get quiet around his parents, even though I should be comfortable around them by now.
I hate how long it takes me to get used to a new situation.
I dont want to be the girl who seems like shes stuck up, quiet, a bitch.
Twenty20 / audreymatthew12
I feel like a shitty girlfriend, because my anxiety stops me from acting carefree and fun.
Even when were alone together, there are times when my anxiety gets the best of me.
Even though Im more comfortable around him than anyone else Ive ever met.
Even though I trust him.
Even though I dont mind when he sees me scared and vulnerable.
But still, I cant help myself from feeling insecure.
I feel like a shitty girlfriend, because I start fights over stupid things.
I get mad about the way he looked at me or spoke to me.
I lie to him to make things easier on myself.
Its hard to get used to opening up to someone.
My anxiety makes me feel like a shitty girlfriend, because I ruin dates by overthinking.
I worry about whether were going to get somewhere on time or follow the right directions.
I worry about everything there is to worry about.
I can never enjoy a good thing, even when Im sitting beside the love of my life.
My anxiety make me feel like a shitty girlfriend, because thats what anxiety does.
It makes me doubt myself.
It makes me hate myself.
That hes lucky to have me.
That he wants to be with me forever, whether Im suffering from anxiety or not.
