Next year, I promise to leave you in the past.
When the new year comes, Im saying goodbye.
By
Updated 5 years ago,December 7, 2019
Im saying goodbye to the pain.
Natalie Allen
The feelings that seem so one-sided.
Im saying goodbye to you.
You were never any good for me anyways.
Im saying goodbye to texting you first.
To waiting for you to respond.
Im saying goodbye to hoping I didnt do something to make you mad.
To waiting for you to acknowledge me.
To make me feel like something.
To constantly feeling unworthy.
To feeling like I dont deserve your attention.
Next year, I will stop missing you.
Because really, it should be you missing me.
Im done putting forth all my effort for someone who doesnt make me a priority.
Who makes me question my worth.
Im done feeling bad for myself.
Im done wishing you felt the same strong feelings that I did.
I shouldnt have to question myself every day.
It shouldnt be that hard.
But we never really were meant to be, were we?
Next year, I will stop picking up my phone waiting to see your name.
I will stop thinking of things to tell you.
I will stop reminiscing on the good times.
I will stop romanticizing someone who isnt that special.
I will put your name behind me.
I will be more realistic.
I will see you for what you really are.
I will stop grasping for straws.
I will stop looking for any indication that you care.
Because if you did, I wouldnt have to miss you.
You would be right here with me.
Next year, I will believe in myself.
I will put you where you belong, in the past.
Next year I will stop missing you,
But today.
Well today, I wish you were here.
