Holley, says of his HIV+ diagnosis.
Therefore, I knew something different was happening inside.
It was a cool fall day in 2012 that he was officially informed of his status as Poz.
He went for a second consultation, and it was confirmed again.
Nathaniel realized that there was no choice but to operate from a place of acceptance from that point forward.
Nathaniel says he experienced a heavy burden upon receiving his diagnosis, which is not an uncommon response.
I began to imagine how others would see me if they found out I was positive, he said.
I had vowed to never tell my family because I felt like they would be too disappointed to cope.
Emotionally, I was not equipped to handle it and I attempted to resume life like nothing had happened.
I subsequently started treatment and only shared my diagnosis with my best friend.
Nathaniel says he even reached a point where it was hard to look in the mirror.
I felt like I was smart enough not to be in this situation, he said.
Those thoughts consumed me as I attempted to make sense of my life following diagnosis.
I sought help from a local community-based organization to get counseling services, he said.
Gradually, Nathaniel began participating in some of the events that the organization hosted, and he gained perspective.
It was after this that Nathaniel really started to step forward in his truth.
I did not want to continue living these two lives.
Later, Nathaniel went on to sit on the D.C.
Regional Commission on Health and HIV after being appointed by the Mayor.
As for progress in the HIV+ community, Nathaniel has hope for the future.
you’re able to google HIV in most areas and typically find a connection that is useful.
Technology has enhanced the mechanism by which care is delivered and obtained.
This allows access to quality resources from the touch of a finger.
However, that doesnt mean there isnt still work to do.
I have no problems maintaining my weight and my skin is relatively clear.
Today, Nathaniel looks forward to writing a book that shares stories of enlightenment through hardship.
HIV didnt kill my dreams, Nathaniel says.
It made me stronger, because I know what I am capable of overcoming.
