In a way, I guess I did let you.
This is the first time Im allowing myself to admit this out loud to admit it period.
You hurt me, and I tried to act like you didnt.
Ben Blennerhassett
I tried to pretend like the conversations I had with you didnt mean anything.
Like you were just some guy I texted when I was lonely.
Like you were just an idea.
Ben Blennerhassett
Like I flew across the country just for a long getaway weekend.
But we both know this not to be true.
I got close to you.
You actively pursued me.
I still remember you asking me what the darkest thing Ive never told anybody is.
You must be really good at what you do, because I shared some of these things with you.
You told me things too.
I had never known a guy to open up the way you did.
I was amazed at how unashamed you were to do so.
We talked about a future together.
You finally getting me out of Texas.
Perhaps you just get off to manipulating and charming people to feel like you have some sort of power.
Ill never know, and at this point, I could care less.
You used me for whatever sick little games you play.
You put on a facade to get whatever it was that you wanted out of me.
For months you kept a secret from me.
You had a girlfriend.
You knew my past experience with cheating.
You knew how Id been hurt this way and how fucked up it left me.
You made me a participant in an act I never wanted to be involved in again.
In an act I never wanted to be done to me again.
Youre the most skillful liar Ive ever met.
The reasons it hurt you and the reasons they ended.
I found this out.
Confirmed 100% shortly after getting back from my trip to see you.
Not that it mattered much, because I didnt hear from you again.
I didnt want to hear from you again.
You text me now months later because youre in the same city as me?
Fuck no, I dont want to meet up or get a drink with you.
Was my body all you were after?
No, Im convinced you just like to play with women.
Im sure you get off to making them to feel things for you.
Im convinced Im not the first one.
No, I dont think I want to meet up.
For her sake, I hope she finds out.
For your sake, dont piss me off again, because flings come and go but screenshots last forever.
