I’m not doting over you.
I’m not crying into my pillow every night while thinking of our last conversation.
It’s nothing like that, believe me.
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Updated 2 months ago,March 4, 2025
Its true.
You still cross my mind.
You have for a while now.
Im not denying this fact.
I guess Ive been fixating on the wasted potential between us thats what hurts the most.
Within these reflections are hidden concoctions of regret, confusion, and nostalgia.
Yes, I still think about you.
But dont get it twisted.
Im not doting over you.
Im not crying into my pillow every night while thinking of our last conversation.
Its nothing like that, believe me.
Maybe if I had suppressed some of my thoughts that one time, we would still be in contact.
Its a two-way street, and you should know that every action has an equal and opposite reaction.
You couldve been more understanding, more empathetic, less defensive.
You could have taken time to see things from my perspective.
And I know Im not perfect; there are a lot of things I do in fact regret.
It would only have prolonged the inevitable.
But heres the thing: If you were meant to be, you wouldve looked past all that.
You would have accepted the person I was at that time because it would have been enough.
You would have overlooked things, behaved in another way.
I only acted the way I did based on your cues.
I guess accepting it and wishing for it back for a sense of nostalgic comfort are two separate things.
Thats not to say Im holding out for either, but Im trying to come to terms with it.
So I do still think about you and what we couldve been.But not in the way you think.
