Im not staying the night.
I’m not telling you how crazy in love I am with you.
Im not telling you how crazy in love I am with you.
@carlyseitz
On December 31st, Im healing myself over fixing you.Im listening to my favorite songs over hearing your problems.
Im sitting on a table with my loved ones over a chair across from you.
Im laughing about how bitch of a year 2017 was instead of crying about it.
@carlyseitz
Im thinking about my hopes for the next year over my fears of whats to come.
Im telling my mind to forget that you exist when it has the urge to contact you.
Im silencing my heart every hour it screams your name.
Im letting go of your happiness and Im welcoming mine.
Im putting my faith in myself instead of you.
And Im risking losing you over losing myself.
Im telling myself the difference between a healthy relationship and a toxic one.
Im teaching myself to live in a life without you in it.
Im teaching myself that you belong in my past not the future.
Im teaching myself that fighting for someone is not the answer, acceptance and letting go are.
On December 31st, I am leaving you.
Im not going to hold your hand and tell you its going to be okay.
Im not going to be your family, best friend, biggest fan, or forever person anymore.
From now on, Im not going to choose you because Im starting to choose myself.
