You will realize that not only did I admire your physical features but I admired all of you.
When we were together I wanted time to stand still.
I would count the days down until I would see you again.
God & Man
I couldnt wait for your embrace.
I loved your arms wrapped around my body holding me tightly.
I loved the way you made me feel.
I thought everything was fine and you felt the same way.
But I was wrong.
As time progressed and things started to get serious, you started to pull away.
The more you pulled away, the more I wanted to move in.
Then you decided that right here and right now, this is not what you wanted.
That you were not ready for commitment, that you were not ready for forever.
My heart aches to know that you never cared about me the same way I cared about you.
I wanted us to work.
I wanted to have a future together.
I wanted to be a part of your life.
But you decided to walk away.
You gave up on the woman who would not have easily given up on you.
You walked away from the woman who was aware of your flaws and baggage and accepted you anyway.
Despite it all, I dont have any regrets because at leastI tried.
I tried to hold on but I realized you cant hold on to someone who doesnt want to stay.
I realized that I was the only one who was invested in this relationship.
And while I was planning our future, you were planning your escape.
My heart will heal and one day you will just be a memory from the past.
One day you will realize what a great thing you had.
But you were too naive to realize that.
One day you will regret letting me go.
It will not happen today or tomorrow.
It may even take weeks, months, or even years for you to realize what you have lost.
The way our naked bodies laid next to each other and how we felt each others warmth.
You will miss how I ran my fingers through your hair and how I would gently caress your face.
You will miss the peaceful silence that occurred after we had engaged in physical euphoria.
I still chose you.
You will miss the times I would randomly look at you with adoration in my eyes.
You will realize that not only did I admire your physical features but I admiredallof you.
How every time things went wrong, I would take a stab at find ways how to fix it.
How much I sacrificed to make things work, while you were taking me for granted.
But you were wrong.
You will think back of all our times together and how genuinely happy you felt with me.
I will have already moved on.
I wont think about you anymore.
I wont look at you the same way I used to.
I wont feel the same way about you.
I wont be looking back.
You will be left in my past.
One day you will regret letting me go, and you wont find me anymore.
