Healing is not linear.
Healing is not easy.
But healing isnt like that.
Drew Wilson
Healing doesnt occur on a timeline and often doesnt have a distinct ending.
Most of the time, healing happens in increments, little by little each day.
On the harder days of healing, you will feel like you are swimming against the current.
You will search for answers that may not actually exist.
Healing isnt black and white.
It goes up and down, and you have to have the downs for make progress.
Even when you feel like you are drowning.
You have to realize that healing can be ugly and messy.
It can be heartbreaking and sharp-edged and painful.
But it will also have those moments when you feel light again like everything is okay.
You will feel free and open and full of hope.
You will notice the people who love you.
You will feel supported and loved, and much less alone.
You will feel as though you are capable of healing.
And these are the moments that you oughta hold tightly to.
For these are the moments that are going to help you find your way.
And oftentimes, healing happens when it wants to happen.
Like a stabbing in your chest, it all hits you at once.
Healing happens when you are driving and here a sad song on the radio, and your heart hurts.
Your body feels heavy.
Your mind hurts and your head hurts.
When you dont feel prepared to face the day.
When you would give anything to stay in your cozy pajamas, safe in bed.
Healing is pain but its also joy.
Healing happens when you watch your favorite tv show by yourself and giggle out loud.
Healing happens over time.
It happens quietly and delicately, and it repeats itself, over and over again.
Sometimes it moves very slowly, but it is continuous, it never ends.
So you have to be gentle with yourself and gentle with the process.
You have to be patient, and you have to trust yourself that you are brave enough to heal.
That you’ve got the option to do this.
That you will breathe again.
It is painful and tolling.
But each day is progress.
Each moment is a little bit better.
Some moments will be harder, a little bit more trying, but you will get there.
Your strength and your courage will stay long after the hurt.
And although you may always have a scar, you will not always be hurting.
You will not always be in pain.
The scar will become a sign of how gracefully you healed.
Of how beautifully you continued to exist despite the pain.
So hold on…pain ends.
Just give it time and patience, and look for the beauty that is still all around you.
