Sometimes you have to say goodbye to someone good and instead wait patiently for someone better.
Heartbreaks are never easy, no matter the circumstances and no matter who leaves first.
We tend to think that the endings of longer relationships are always more difficult.
Nick Owuor (astro.nic.visuals)
And sometimes the longer relationships do have the most profound and painful heartbreaks.
But sometimes the smaller heartbreaks still take their toll.
Sometimes the loss of what couldve been is harder to face than the loss of what was.
That being said, every heartbreak rips you apart; every heartbreak hurts.
And there doesnt have to be a rhyme or reason to why it is so painful.
Comparing the pain of one kind of heartbreak doesnt alleviate the pain of the other.
And losing someone, no matter in what capacity, is never an easy experience.
Perhaps this heartbreak hurts even more than the last because of the confusing premise of it.
Maybe you blame yourself for falling this head over heels for someone.
And maybe this heartbreak is even more painful because you know that the other person is okay.
You know that they are probably coping with it much better than you are.
You know that they arent crying themselves to sleep every night.
Maybe it hurts so much because the other persons heart stayed intact while yours burst into smithereens.
Because, truth be told, the ending was everything to you.
Or maybe this time, you thought you found it.
The big four letter word: love.
Even though neither of you had said it, you thought you finally had it.
And you believed that they felt it too, even if they didnt say it.
Maybe this wasnt love or even the beginnings of love.
Maybe they werent your person, despite how much you wanted them to be.
You basked in the innocence of pretending things were perfect, evenbelievingthings were perfect.
You let the connection and the chemistry guide the way.
You didnt want to admit that anything was wrong.
You didnt want to admit all of those times when you felt like you said the wrong thing.
That even when they were with you, they were searching for someone or something better.
Like you werent the first choice.
And maybe, all along, you knew that this wasnt right.
That you shouldnt have felt so insecure.
But they made you feel wild.
And on top of the world.
And you had feelings, strong feelings, and this is why you held on so tightly.
This is why you couldnt give up on them.
This is why you put on a brave face and chose to move forward.
You kept thinking that eventually, it would work out.
And eventually, it would be the love story that you had always wanted.
Because it was for a while, at least.
In your eyes, it was almost perfect.
But looking back now, you know it was nowhere near perfect.
And eventually, when they left you, your heart shattered.
Because you felt like you were special.
Like you were valued by someone.
Like you were loveable.
And even though it wasnt right, that doesnt stop you from wishing it was.
It doesnt mean that you miss them any less.
It doesnt stop you from craving them when they are gone.
And it doesnt mean that you loved them any less.
They leave you questioning your worth and yourself.
You feel too broken to be fixed.
And you feel inconsolable, like nothing but them can make you feel whole again.
And most of all, they leave you feeling immensely sad and immensely low.
You think that maybe, just maybe, they made a mistake.
You dont have to blame yourself for thinking this.
You dont have to feel bad if you send a text and dont receive a response.
You have a big heart, and you were hurt.
You want to hear from the person who set your heart on fire.
It makes perfect sense.
If they had it in their heart to doubt your relationship, they arent your person.
Because your person wouldnt leave you.
Your person wouldnt be able to end your relationship so easily.
They wouldnt be able to walk away without looking back.
They are no longer someone you should chase, because they have stopped chasing you.
And the truth is, if you werent enough for them, then they arent enough for you.
You being yourself should never make you feel less loveable.
Its okay if you are complicated.
Its okay if you feel as though you are a little bit difficult to love.
No love is simple.
But real love isnt this hard.
And you might do so much better than them.
Its the hardest lesson in the world.
Its the hardest piece of truth that youll have to face.
But sometimes the very best thing it’s possible for you to do is to let them go.
Sometimes you have to say goodbye to someone good and instead wait patiently for someone better.
And deep down, you know that they dont love you in the way that you love them.
And that they probably never will.
You deserve a two-sided love.
A love without an expiration date.
A love that is not a temporary fantasy.
A love that doesnt hurt quite this much.
You need someone who not only infatuates you, but also someone who betters you.
Someone who makes you more of exactly who you are.
The truth is, you deserve the jot down of love that can change the tides of the ocean.
You deserve someone who will brag about you to every single person they cross paths with.
Someone who calls you just to hear the sound of your voice.
You deserve someone who chooses you every single day, day in and day out, with no hesitation.
You deserve someone who smiles at you when you giggle because they just cant help themselves.
You deserve someone who has eyes for you, and only you, in a crowded room.
You deserve someone who is in love with you.
Someone who loves you deeply with no reservations.
You deserve the world and nothing less.
