It will burn a hole in your heart.
Or your best friend wont spend time with you the way they did six years ago.
It will burn a hole in your heart.
Maël BALLAND
An aching feeling in your chest will grow and wont go away, like a ceaseless stabbing.
You breathe in sharply, and wait for another and then another.
You feel like youre stuck in an endless highway, in between vehicles flying past you.
You feel like you have nowhere to go.
Wandering hopelessly, you make a run at scream but no sound comes out.
Im fine, youll say to yourself and spend another day pretending you are.
Those days become weeks and then months.
Soon, you find yourself in a dark place.
You ask yourself what went wrong and all the memories will come flashing before your eyes.
You cant find the broken train tracks.
You cant find the mistake.
You start feeling sorry for yourself and feel as though you will never be able to recover.
But, darling,you will.
You will get better, things will improve and you will be okay.
So do not feel sorry for yourself.
They are terrified of its capacity to heal, mold and change them.
You might constantly think that they were the sun and they had deprived you of their warmth.
But, darling,you are your own sun.
Your light and presence feed this entire universe.
And those who are too frightened of your wonders will never come close.
It doesnt make you any less than who you are.
They wont randomly take pictures of you anymore or watch you lovingly when you arent looking.
It will hurt and feel as though the pain sees no end.
But know that you are not a reflection of their fears.
You are not the lost battles.
You are not an apology.
You are not a sad song.
You are not a rejected chapter of a story.
You are not incomplete poetry.
Regardless of what everybody else thinks, you are never just one piece of a thing.
You are whole and complete on your own.
You are beautiful in every possible way that you might be.
You are worthy and loved.
And you are all these things at once.
