When every single day feels the same, it’s hard to break out of your routine.
It’s hard to find reasons to pull yourself out of bed in the morning.
Every single day is the same.
Naitian（Tony） Wang
But for some reason, you still mark days off the calendar.
You still stare at the clock and count down the minutes.
You feel like youre waiting for something but you arent sure what that thing is.
Maybe youre counting down until work is over but why?
What are you going to do after that?
You dont have any real plans.
Youre not counting down until something happens.
Youre counting down until something stops.
Until it’s possible for you to stop working.
Until you’ve got the option to stop dealing with people.
Until you’ve got the option to stop stressing.
Until you’re free to stop caring.
Thats not a healthy way to live.
You shouldnt be counting down to end points.
You should be counting down to starting points.
Until you get to see your best friend again.
Until you get to kiss your person.
Until you get to watch that show youve been dying to see.
Until you get to eat the food youve been saving in the fridge.
Until you get to do something fun, something exciting, something that makes you feel alive.
Unfortunately, nothing excites you much lately.
If there was something youwantedto do, then you would do it.
You would set the plans.
You would take the adventure.
You would take active steps to get to make yourself feel okay again.
The problem is that you arent sure whats going to accomplish that.
You arent sure what will energize you, inspire you, light a fire underneath you.
Sometimes, it makes it worse.
Sometimes, it makes you feel guilty.
Sometimes, it makes you wonder whether there is something wrong with you.
Youll still feel the same.
When youre in a state of mind like this,shoulddoesnt matter.
Maybe you should be excited to spend time with your friends.
Maybe you should be excited to see a new movie in the theater.
Maybe you should be excited to sit down at your favorite restaurant and eat your go-to meal.
But your heart doesnt listen toshoulds.
Neither does your brain.
When every single day feels the same, its hard to break out of your routine.
Its hard to find reasons to pull yourself out of bed in the morning.
Butyouhave to be the reason.
Yourfuturehas to be the reason.Giving a shit about yourselfhas to be the reason.
You have to keep going.
You have to get through this rut.
