You are not sure what hurts more.
The love you tried to make or the love that disappeared before your very eyes.
You are not a free therapy session or someone just to pass unwanted time with.
Tobi
You tried to win him back with your body.
You hoped that would finally be enough to make him yours again.
You are learning that he is someone you will never be enough for.
Your smooth skin was too much.
The lace across your body was trying too hard to find someone you had already lost months ago.
You wonder where the boy went who couldnt keep his hands, eyes, mouth off of you.
Who is this stranger you are sharing a bed with?
He tries to say that you are going to do this right.
Tell me what is right about giving someone the cold shoulder when they are at their most vulnerable.
You cannot decide something is right just because you are going through the motions.
Routine has never been synonymous with correct.
You do not deserve to feel this way.
Your body is worth more than this.
He doesnt deserve to enjoy you if he cannot even be present while he does.
Maybe this time wasnt the best time, but that doesnt mean you are undeserving of someone elses love.
The right person will not take you for granted.
They wont shame you for trying to catch their eye.
And they wont leave you the moment things turn anything less than perfect.
You will find this person.
And once you do, you will finally understand what it means to love and be loved in return.
