He gave up on you.
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Updated 4 years ago,January 19, 2021
He left you.
He ended a relationship that you thought was only just beginning.
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He gave up on you.
He gave up on all of the hopes you had for the two of you.
And you wonder when he fell out of love with you.
You wonder if maybe he was your person, but you werent his.
Maybe he just didnt love you quite enough.
But all he really said was that he couldnt be in this relationship anymore.
All he said that it wasnt right for him anymore.
That it wasnt the relationship it once was.
And all you could do was listen and try not to cry.
And then he left.
And it was over.
I know it felt good when he loved you.
I know you miss him, at least, the him that was in love with you.
And I know how much you miss the magical feeling of being loved by him.
But at some point along the way, his love ended.
Or at least, it was no longer enough to make him stay.
And I know its a hard truth to grasp.
Maybe the signs were there that he was no longer your prince charming.
Maybe he stopped sharing his feelings, or asking you about your feelings.
Or maybe he slowly created a distance between the two of you.
He didnt hold your hand so comfortably.
You still didnt feel prepared for a loss so great.
You didnt feel ready to lose your prince charming.
The one who you thought was going to be your person.
And now you dont know how to be without him.
You dont know how to go back to normal.
Or what normal even feels like.
And I know how much it hurts.
I know that you still believe that deep down some part of him must still love you.
Or at least you want to believe that he still loves you.
At least, not from your perspective.
And it hurts to think that he might be okay.
You want to believe that he is pining over you.
Or that he will come back to you when he realizes what he just let go of.
That he messed up.
That he realizes that ending it was a mistake.
But its not him.
Because this time, it really is an ending.
And as much as it hurts, you must realize that he chose to go.
He chose to leave.
Maybe his feelings changed.
Or maybe he was just afraid of loving you.
But no matter what the reasons may be, he left.
I know that deep down, you believe that you are still the one for him.
I know you think this was your fairytale.
I know you are in shock that it ended so quickly.
I know have been crying since he left.
I know your face is swollen from the tears.
And I know that you feel hollow, like your heart has been ripped out of you.
I know you cant wrap your head around such a deep sadness and heartbreak.
I know you want to just rewind time and have him back in your life.
I know you keep checking your phone to see if he texted you.
I know you keep having to hold yourself back from texting or calling him.
And I know that you are still praying for him to return.
Because he didnt stay.
Its as simple and as profound as that.
Of a love that doesnt have an expiration date.
A love that you dont have to question or worry about or doubt.
Youre going to find your real fairy tale.
I hope that in your pain you’ve got the option to still realize this.
Sometimes you have to go through the heartbreak to find the happy ending.
And I know that now you are doubting yourself, and deeming yourself unworthy of love.
But you must know that just because he didnt love you doesnt mean you cant love you.
Your worth was never measured by his feelings about you.
He doesnt get a say in how valuable or how special you are.
He doesnt get to leave you feeling broken or insecure.
He doesnt get to make you feel little or worthless.
He doesnt have the power to make you feel unloveable.
He doesnt have that power, so hey, dont allow yourself to think he does.
You are loveable and worthy, and so very special.
And no one can take this from you.
The fact that he left doesnt change who you are.
But the truth is, you needed this love to grow.
You learned how to trust someone with the most delicate belonging you had your heart.
And for a while, you let someone else hold a part of your heart.
He nurtured it and loved it and cared for it as if it were his own.
But now he has given it back.
He hasnt smashed it to smithereens, even if it feels this way.
Perhaps he unintentionally bruised it as he gave it back to you, but he didnt ruin it.
He didnt make it unloveable.
And now you are carrying your whole heart, all on your own.
So take care of it.
Love it and watch over it.
Because one day, if you so choose, you are going to share it with someone else.
So ensure it is ready to love, and to be loved.
Remember that he isnt your last love.
This isnt the last time you will be loved.
This ending of one love story is the beginning of another.
This is a new beginning.
This is a new chance.
So now, let go of him.
Hold on to the memories, but dont continue to relive them.
At least, not right now.
Later on you’re able to dive down memory lane.
Later on you might remember all of the good parts of your relationship.
But right now you are tender.
Right now you just need to take care of yourself, and focus on healing.
Because yes, you lost someone very, very special to you.
You lost someone who you thought you would have forever with.
But one day you will begin to feel okay again.
One day he will be a memory, and the pain wont feel quite so raw.
One day you will feel whole and loveable again.
You will feel happy again.
So take your time as you heal, but check that you remember who you are.
Remember how beautiful life can be, even without him in your life.
You didnt end up with him, because you werent meant to.
We dont know what the future of your story reads.
We dont know what will happen next.
You are going to be just fine.
