It doesnt take a whole lot to throw me off course when I am doing well.
Last week it was a man harassing me on the street.
Things like that can send a shock wave throughout my body that lasts for days and has multiple aftershocks.
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Last night was a downward spiral and today I am steadily trying to build myself back up again.
As I punch in this I am using it to cope with whats going on in my mind.
Things like this can feel paralyzing, as if you are trapped, and alone.
The thing that makes you feel alone is that no body around you knows what you are going through.
Its hard to talk about it.
There are two parts of my mind that are at odds with one another.
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One side is saying to go home, jump in bed, and go to sleep at 5:00 pm.
When the first side wins, I never really go to sleep.
When the second side wins, I go to sleep peacefully and happily.
Every day I start all over and its another chance for the second side to win.
There is someone out there, someone that you least expect, feeling the same way.
Just like if you have a cold, millions of people know the symptoms that you are dealing with.
It helps to talk about it, not only will it help you but it could help someone else.
Dont be ashamed if you have a bad mental day.
Even the strongest people have their demons.
Love yourself; the good, the bad, the dark, and the dirty.
I can promise you that you wont be the only person that loves you.
