I might feel like nobody cares – but I can change that.
I can start caring about myself.
It doesnt get the point across.
Jernej Graj
Saddoes not do my feelings justice.
The pain is ongoing and unexplainable.
Its not like there is anyone to tell anyway.
There are people who will read my message and ignore me without bothering to jot down out a reply.
I feel like no one cares about me.
No one wants to talk to me.
No one wants to hang out with me.
People who claim they love me.
But where are they right now?
Where have they been the past few days, weeks, months?
Where is the proof they care?
I cant find any.
But I cannot surrender to this feeling.
I cannot mope around the house while wearing yesterdays clothes.
I have to stop myself from spiraling.
I have to rescue myself.
I have to be there for myself.
I have to act as my own best friend.
I might feel like nobody cares but I can change that.
I can start caring aboutmyself.
I can climb out from bed.
I can brush my teeth.
I can face the day with my head high and back straight.
They are not essential to my survival.
They are not worth crying tears over.
At least not for such a large stretch of time.
Maybe they will become my new home.
My new place of peace.
But until that day arrives, I have to be okay walking through this world alone.
I have to remember my relationship with myself matters more than my relationship with anybody else.
