Its fighting to see yourself as worthy, even when youre constantly told that youre not good enough.
Its fighting to appreciate who youve become, while still making goals to reach towards.
There would always be an excuse, a reason, an explanation as to why I wasnt good enough.
God & Man
Id still look at myself and see all that I wanted tochange, rather than all I alreadywas.
And I was miserable.
Because it felt like I was always trying, but never reaching.
Always adapting, but never quite right.
Instead of appreciating myself for being messy and complicated and uniquelyme, I wassearching for perfection.
I didnt understand the truth about self-love, that it is a beautiful fight.
God & Man
Its fighting to see yourself as worthy, even when youre constantly told that youre not good enough.
Its fighting to appreciate who youve become, while still making goals to reach towards.
Its fighting to accept yourself, but not settling or becoming selfish.
Its fighting to find a healthy balance between listening to the world and listening to your heart.
And once I accepted this, I realized I was going about the process all wrong.
I saw self-love as this destination.
I didnt need to look in the mirror and see my blemishes before my beauty.
I didnt need to surround myself with people and things that told me to change.
And I dont have to apologize for that.
Self-love, Ive learned, is not seeing yourself as this perfect, blame-free entity.
But its also not shaking your head at reflection every time you stumble across a mirror.
Self-love is not this place you reach where everything goes right, feels good, and makes sense.
And you dont find self-love when you have the ideal body or life or mindset.
You have to battle for self-love.
You have to push back against your enemies and the negative voices in your head.
And you have to keep fightingagainst and for yourself.
Because self-love is not a fixed point, its a journey.
