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Updated 4 years ago,August 31, 2021
What does it mean to care too much?
Ive wrestled with that question so many times.
But it spread beyond that.
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But I never saw my actions, my emotions to the extent they did.
I wasnt boasting with pride with every step, or beaming with confidence in every word I spoke.
I was simply being menot overbearing or motherly or pathetic or incrediblejust caring.
Being too much has always been engrained in my genetic makeup, I suppose.
And most times this was wonderful, but sometimes this felt like its own kind of burden.
I used to resent myself for my caring too much.
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I felt like I was living my life with my heart on my sleeveasking to get my heart broken.
But then I found value in who I was because people arent like this.
Theyre too quick to run, to leave, to give up.
People dont fight for things.
They dont stand beside their significant other and battle the world.
They dont give until they have nothing left, and then give some more.
And thats where caring too much has value.
You care enough to be there when people need you.
You care enough to fight, to pursue, to love, tobe there.
But what happens when the girl who cares too much gets tired?
What happens when the girl whos been trying to save everyone else, needs saving?
The emotions flip and suddenly the world feels like its tilted off its axis.
Suddenly other people have to step into shoes theyre not quite ready for.
They have to find the words to say; they have to seek strength within their own two feet.
And its not always easy.
But if youre the girl who cares too much?
You need a break, too.
You dont have to be everything to everyone all the time.
You dont have to think youve failed the people around you just because youre taking some time for yourself.
You are allowed to take a moment to regain your strength.
You have permission to finally fall into bed at night and let everyone elses burdens slip off your shoulders.
You are not any less because you are taking care of yourself right now.
When youre the girl who cares too much, you always put others first.
You quiet yourself and your desires and push your feelings aside to make room for others.
You give so much of yourself, both emotionally and physically.
You spend your time agonizing over others pain.
And you get exhausted sometimes by the sheer weight of it all.
Its okay to slow down.
Its okay to pause.
Its okay to give yourself the permission to pull away for a bit.
Give yourself space, attention, and love.Give yourself time and patience and healing.
Now you have the strength to begin again, and you will, refreshed and renewed.
Because the world needs you.
