I forget there was a time when I felt like I wasnt worth anything.
It was long nights of crying and feelings of just pure pain.
But now, with you by my side, Im starting to remember who I am again.
I suddenly see who I was before all of the hurt and all of the pain.
Its coming back to me that I was someone who believed in people.
Someone who trusted everyone first and had no problems giving people glimpses of who I was.
I remember I was someone people described as happy.
Youre exactly what Ive always wanted and knew I needed but convinced myself would never happen.
To feel how real the feeling is, how real you are.
Robert Ramirez
I can literally feel the elation in my body when we sit a little too close together.
Because when you say my name, I know its because youre seeing me.
Its a weird feeling, you know.
Its strange to feel it when all youve been feeling for a while is numbness.
Happiness is that feeling of warmth in those dark parts of your heart that felt cold.
Happiness spreads throughout your entire body and radiates from you like the strongest light in the world.
And honey, you make me sofuckinghappy.
Because when I met you, I was broken.
Before you, I dont know if you would have liked me very much.
I was cold, bitter and everything I never thought I would end up being.
My friends saw the change, and loved me anyways because they know my past.
But then there was you.
And I have to admit, this scares me, too.
You scare me like no one else has before.
The good kind of different that every girl dreams about.
You have shown me something new.
You have made me realize that trust and vulnerability can feel like theyre second nature.
You have made me feel that I am enough just exactly the way I am.
Thats no easy feat.
I would love to say that Im playing this cool but I am so completely uncool.
And you already know this.
The real me whos not afraid to admit shes scared.
The me thats not always the center of attention and is actually content with being quiet with someone.
You see those moments when Im less than stellar and manage to be there anyways.
The boys before you made me feel like I wasnt anything special.
The boys before you didnt make an effort or care to remember the little details.
The boys before you were exactly that; boys.
You are a man.
A man who knows who he is and what he wants.
Theres nothing sexier than that.
I dont think Ive ever seen your kind of handsome before.
The kind that exudes that you might not know everything but you know you.
Im not sure what this is or what this will be but thank you.
Thank you for being so easy to fall for.
Thank you for being there.
But most of all, thank you for letting me be me.
