When did I know?
When I closed my eyes and held my breath, unzipped and undressed my ribcage.
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Updated 6 years ago,March 17, 2019
When did I know?
Paolo Raeli
When I closed my eyes and held my breath, unzipped and undressed my ribcage.
But magnificently, there you were, just sitting on the couch, looking at me.
Not gawking or laughing.
Your eyebrows werent raised or furrowed in confusion.
You neither looked surprised or horrified.
Immediately, I felt too big in my body.
The room was suddenly too small, and I was once again too much.
But it was a futile act, really, because there was already blood everywhere.
Youre going to hurt yourself!
I was crying at this point and my vision was blurred so I hadnt seen you stand up.
I couldnt see you now waving your arms in front of me just as frantically.
Thats none of your concern!
I hissed through tears, anger replacing my earlier embarrassment.
When did it get cold in here?
I started to shiver.
Are you done yet?
Now you were laughing, or at least I detected amusement in your voice.
That silenced me, and I closed my half-open mouth.
Will you let me help you?
I already know what youre going to say.
You guided me over to the couch, careful not to touch me in any of the wrong places.
Then you grabbed a towel from the bathroom and handed it to me.
When I finally looked up, you appeared suddenly shy.
But yeah, so thats when I knew.
