Brianna Wiest,The Pivot Year
The other day I woke up angry.
I started to list all of the reasons they hate me.
I started to think about arguments I would tell them to SHOW them how wrong they are.
Yunus Tuğ
Its like a barrel of infinite water.
I thanked her for that.
She told me to deliberately differentiate.
I wrote to another friend about how his reconnection with me after so many years really touched me.
It reminded me of the many thousands of moments we shared together.
Were all just trying to survive.
We all have our insecurities.
We can sink in them or try very hard to rise above them.
And that made me happy.
One time I was having a big problem in my life.
They were playing chess.
They invited me to sit and play with them.
It was two in the morning and I had been walking around due to anxious insomnia.
We played for an hour and I was happy.
We were joking around.
We were playing games.
I forgot completely what I was anxious about.
It was not so much the play or the laughter, but the community.
These were my friends.
Friends, on and off, for almost 15 years.
And here they were at 2 in the morning, and we were enjoying each others company.
There was Russian Paul.
It was like the Justice League of America.
Only they were all homeless chess players.
I cant remember whether I won or lost.
I just remember that I loved them.
And I loved that moment.
And I love thinking about it now.
Sharing and community makes us a tribe.
When I give a piece of myself to you, I know that the world has changed.
That the world has been made better.
Happiness is not about politics.
Or about improving my life.
Happiness is about you and me and what we will do together.
