The first holidays without them is just about getting through it.
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Updated 5 years ago,December 9, 2019
The first holiday season without you.
The first holiday season without a parent is a sad reality.
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Its not wanting to celebrate at all.
Its wondering if things will ever be the same.
Its knowing that they likely wont.
The first holiday season without you, and I wish we could skip the holiday altogether.
The first holiday season without someone you love is misery on earth.
The first holiday season without you, and Im ready to fast forward a few months.
I dont want to spend Christmas with an empty chair.
I dont want to smile and spread fake cheer.
I wish I had a present to give you.
I wish shopping, the music, and the lights made me feel like it once did.
This year feels empty.
The first holiday season of many without you, and I feel lost.
When someone loses a parent, or loved one, the first holidays are the worst.
Its a constant reminder that someone is missing.
That person should be there.
The first holiday season is just constantly wishing that it were over.
Its silently hoping the days away.
Because once they are over, you’re able to at least breath again.
Its a slow countdown and sinking feeling counting down the days.
Its hoping that the day goes by as fast as it can.
Holidays are supposed to be the happiest of times, but for some its the worst.
Its an emptiness that doesnt go away.
People will go about their lives, and many wont understand the pain you feel.
Why you dont feel like celebrating.
Why you would rather just stay home and skip the day altogether.
Everyone has their own things they are going through, and may not understand your pain.
People arent intentionally ignoring your pain.
Some dont realize how hard just getting through the day is.
But dont let others minimize your pain.
The first holiday season without them, you may feel alone, but you are not.
Remember, your parent would want you to continue the holiday.
They wouldnt want you to be sad, and skip the season.
The first holidays without them is just about getting through it.
And thats all you have to do.
The first holiday season without them.
It wont be easy.
But the next will be a little better.
And then the next.
Holidays, when you lose people, begin to lose their shine and excitement.
Sometimes we never get that back.
Celebrate with those you’re able to.
The first holiday season without you, and I just wish you were here.
