It isnt as terrifying as giving my affection and attention to someone who might break me apart.
Im not going to lie it sucks.
This has definitely happened and I dont regret a minute of my complicated journey.
Blake Lisk
Its necessary and its definitely still a work in progress.
I have a long way to go but Im okay with it.
Thats the human condition.
Blake Lisk
Im grateful that I realized I needed to change.
Unfortunately this hasnt happened.
Yes, Ive made progress.
I can see my mistakes sooner and I try very hard not to repeat them.
Ive gotten so accustomed to my single life that I dont even want to deal with dating.
Every time I tentatively take another chance on it, Im sorely disappointed.
I choose poorly so regularly that I dont trust myself to choose anyone at all.
What I havent figured out is how to stop wanting the wrong guy.
Its not fair to me or to them.
I dont know what to do, so Im not doing anything.
I absolutely hate it.
I know I dont have to be perfect to have love in my life.
I know that Im a wonderful person who deserves to give and receive affection.
