Maybe it isn’t the timing that breaks people apart.
Maybe it isn’t the challenges or the distance.
Maybe we were only meant to love them for a certain amount of time.
Daiga Ellaby
Maybe we were made to give our hearts to more people, instead of just one.
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Updated 8 years ago,October 4, 2017
It seems to always happen.
And suddenly, youre falling so hard that you cant even control it.
You cant stop it.
But of course, it always seems to happen at the wrong time.
I fell deeply in love at the ripe age of seventeen.
Daiga Ellaby
For a year, everything was like out of a movie scene.
I felt the butterflies and the sparks every damn day.
I felt like I was on top of the world, and I couldnt stop flying.
I fell in love for the first time.
And I thought it would be my last time.
Of course, I was naive.
I was only seventeen.
I didnt know much of anything.
Except for that the love I felt for him was real.
I truly thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with this boy.
I truly thought that our souls were one in the same.
I was so sure of it.
I was so sure of him and I. I was so sure that we would make it.
But life is a funny thing.
And life sent me through hell.
The boy that I loved had to move to another country.
Not a different city or a different state.
And I couldnt stop him.
I couldnt do anything to turn my world back around.
He left in August, after a year or spending every day with me.
I didnt sleep for days.
I felt physically sick.
I was so broken.
But I was convinced that still, we would make it.
Because thats what love makes you do.
It makes you think and do crazy things.
And it makes you believe in it, even when its with the wrong person.
We continued our relationship for two more years going back and forth between plane tickets and buses and airports.
At twenty-one I was STILL convinced he was the one.
But then he told me no.
He told me the distance was too much.
He told me the timing was all wrong.
I had spent three years thinking that we were on the same page.
I had spent three years truly believing he was my soulmate.
But life taught me an important lesson.
Maybe it isnt the timing that breaks people apart.
Maybe it isnt the challenges or the distance.
Maybe we were only meant to love them for a certain amount of time.
Maybe we were made to give our hearts to more people, instead of just one.
So it wasnt that the timing was wrong, like I used to think.
He was wrong for me.
I was wrong for him.
The timing had nothing to do with it.
And I think I was only meant to love him for a little while.
So I could open up my heart to other people.
To other kinds of love.
