Nor do they want to step up to the plate and be that person for you.
And you hope and pray that just maybe this time itll be different.
You try not to get your hopes up because you know what its like to feel let down.
Joanna Nix
Yet, you still hold onto faith that maybe this time it wont happen that way.
Cancelled plans dont faze you even though youre the same person who wouldnt flake out.
You tell someone youre going to be there and you come early and wait.
Joanna Nix
It seems like youre always the one waiting.
Loving hard because you dont know how to do anything else.
Yet it feels like youre jumping through hoops of fire trying to get something you give so freely.
You value love more than anyone because you know what its like to get it right.
So you keep trying.
Thinking maybe this will be the moment and the person thats different.
But sometimes it feels like you lose yourself loving people the way you do.
It feels like this thing you want so badly is out of reach.
Question why you feel things so deeply.
And hurt as hard as you do.
It seems like youre the one who is always sure and its everyone else who isnt.
Your ears have grown mute to everything they say because all it is are lies.
Your eyes are tired.
But you keep trying.
You keep taking chances on people.
And you keep getting hurt.
But I promise you thats going to change.
