Sometimes we’d go days without saying anything at all.
I think there are some things I’ll never be able to describe in words.
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Updated 8 years ago,July 24, 2017
1.I stopped writing about you.
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You used to be my Muse, but I just wasnt inspired anymore.
It didnt seem like a big deal at the time.
2.You stopped making me coffee in the morning.
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You forgot you were supposed to pick me up after work.
You stopped telling me when you were busy.
I stopped expecting things from you.
3.You started picking fights.
Everything I did was wrong, wrong, wrong.
Even the things you used to be proud of.
Even the things you used to love.
Eventually, I stopped fighting back.
4.I stopped telling you things.
When you didnt know about something, we couldnt fight about it.
I got a strange thrill out of keeping secrets, even if they were just small ones.
My stomach always dropped when youd look at me, betrayed, when you found out about them anyway.
Sometimes wed go days without saying anything at all.
I think there are some things Ill never be able to describe in words.
6.We stopped talking altogether.
We never verbally agreed on it, but it just happened.
For once, there was something we didnt have to fight about.
7.You started seeing someone else.
8.You still reached out to me.
I no longer knew how to cut you out, even though it had been so easy before.
I started wondering why we stopped seeing each other in the first place.
Id like to think I have selective memory.
9.You always talked about her and I had to pretend like it didnt hurt.
But god, it hurt, like nothing Id ever known before.
I told myself if I could endure it now, it would get better.
Maybe thats what hurt manifests into when you cant handle the pain anymore.
11.I stopped answering your texts.
I ignored your calls.
I made halfhearted excuses when I saw you, but I knew you didnt believe me.
12.I started talking to other guys.
They werent you, but I started to realize I didnt care.
13.I started writing about you.
It turned out the best way to get over you was to let it all spill out.
