Playing scenarios over and over in your head.
Analyzing texts, trying to figure out the exact moment things went wrong.
Questioning yourself and whether it was all your fault.
Larm Rmah
I mean, why isnt your love enough?
Why doesnt this person see how amazing you are and how much you have to offer?
Why are you chasing this person just to get back to the way things once were?
When someone breaks your heart, its hard to not let it get to you.
Its hard to not to let it bruise your ego.
Letting go means admitting defeat, and no one likes to do that.
Larm Rmah
Weve all been told: Youre too good for him!
He doesnt deserve you!
you might do better!
And yet we STILL DONT LISTEN.
You know youre being treated badly, and that you deserve more.
But the only person who ends up getting hurt is you.
The moment you venture to prove your worth to someone is the moment youve already lost.
For me, it doesnt matter how long Ive known someone.
If I meet someone and we click, Im theirs.
And then, just like that, they let me down.
It doesnt matter how strong I am.
So I sit there in tears in an empty room like a wounded puppy, surrounded by silence.
The voice in my head says, I told you so!
And then I start to wonder: Was I too much again?
Why wasnt I enough?
Is it really that hard to love me?
I know I can be hard to love, but Im trying.
c’mon dont break my heart.
Its been broken so many times, Im starting not to recognize it anymore…
I then give myself two days to be crazy and cry it out.
Im talking about the straight-up Niagara Falls you experience after watching Titanic or Schindlers List for the first time.
I cry till I cant breathe and I look like I should be admitted into an insane asylum.
On those two days, I completely disconnect myself from the world and break down.
But the next day, no matter how hurt I still am, I let go.
I dont let them see my pain.
I dont reach out.
Once I say goodbye, I mean it.
And Ive kept that promise.
I dont love them.
I dont hate them.
I was magic wrapped in gold but that boy preferred silver.
So why should I sit there and be sad over a boy who didnt know what he wanted?
Hes the one that should be sad.
After all,helostme.
I dont believe in getting even.
What I believe is that the best revenge is moving forwardnever backwards.
If thats not his worst quality, I dont know what is.
By the time he comes back (TRUST ME, HE WILL!
), you wont even want him anymore.
You wont need him to make you feel whole because youll be whole all on your own.
The truth is, love isnt easy but its worth itespecially when its with the right person.
Good thing I waited for you…
This story originally appeared onDaddy Issues LA.
