Forget him, if it’s even possible.
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Updated 8 years ago,September 12, 2017
How do you deal with unrequited love?
Just thinking about it makes me literally weak.
Sabrina May
Yeah, thats exactly how I am feeling these days.
For years, I have been trying to shove this permanently in the deepest corner of my closet.
I am trying to fight it, but I lose every single time.
Unrequited love is not like your typical butterfly-inducing kind of love.
You smile for different reasons and you cry for different reasons.
Im starting to think that maybe only death or amnesia could end it.
Sabrina May
Seriously, how do you get over someone who was never yours?
I dont even understand why it started and what I did to deserve to go through this hell.
I have no idea.
But I have heard somewhere that love is not a conscious decision.
You dont just teach your heart to love someone.
It just happens unconsciously.
Maybe Im just too stubborn.
No, maybe this is my karma for ignoring everyone who tries to win my attention.
It cant be one-sided!
Well, its been years and I have tried snapping out of it but Im hopeless.
They seem like yesterday, really.
It feels like Im in some kind of a spell and I cant break free.
Its humiliating and depressing.
How could someone have so much power over you when they are thousands of miles away?
How could you let one person ruin your day when hes not even around?
Well, its also inspiring and motivating in some ways.
There are days when I would be happy simply because he is happy.
Love with mutual understanding is so much different from unrequited love.
Theres no give-and-take situation in here.
You simply give it all and expect nothing in return.
You just care way too much, even if he doesnt actually need you to care.
You perfectly know that he would never care for you the same way and thats totally fine with you.
There are no special endearments, but every word from him is like a taste of heaven.
Hes always an exception to your standards.
Everywhere you go, theres always something that reminds you of him.
Its amazing and annoying at the same time!
You are way past jealousy; seeing him being happy with other girls has been your hellish haven.
Forget him, if its even possible.
Well, it could be if I give a shot to fill my heart with self-love for now.
Or maybe I can have a paradigm shift, a change of perspective.
Maybe people really have to go through this at least once in a while.
Maybe the challenge is learning how to convert an unrequited love to unconditional love.
Maybe not everyone is lucky enough to go through this challenge.
Maybe some who went through this have laid their swords down on the first few years.
Was I strong enough to last and keep my sanity up until this point?
Or was I too dumb to let it creep all over me after all these years?
With or without him in my life, I will be fine.
I cant wait for that day.
I have read somewhere that love healthy true love should be easy and effortless.
It shouldnt make you feel bad, at least not for a long time.
