On many levels I can understand this new mindset and the necessity of singleness as a means to self-actualization.
But truth is never before have I felt this pressing urge to partner with someone.
As I mentioned earlier, I recently moved.
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The preparation alone was extremely daunting as I had so much to do before the actual move.
I found myself unsure of how I would complete this move.
Thankfully four people agreed to help.
To my shock and dismay people came out of the woodwork.
I was so happy.
Finally I could relax my mistrustful heart and really believe in people again.
My faith in humanity was miraculously restored.
As I schlepped all my belongings into the van, I fought back tears of hurt and disappointment.
After this experience I realized so many things.
For one I realized the power of God and his undeserved kindness.
I realized that the absence of human assistance made room for Gods divine presence and His loving assistance.
I was allowed to witness his word in action.
He put flesh on what otherwise would have been just the bare bleached bones of His heavy word.
Two, I realized that physically I am alone in this world.
I have no real friends or actual support system to rely on in times of hardship and distress.
Three I realized that I am the only one I can count on.
Never before has my loneliness been more palpable than when I had to move.
Another cost of being single is the cost associated with having to seek outside support.
After being single for so long, you get accustomed to it.
There literally comes a point where you get good at being single.
Sometimes you get so good at being single that anything other than your own company feels like an intrusion.
It is the belief that since you want it more, you have to do more to get it.
Being single can be the sweetest gift.
Conversely it can also be the bleakest curse.
I guess the key to being single is balance.
It becomes necessary to balance solitude with involvement and connection.
Of course, this is in no way an easy thing to do.
You will still cry and hunger for love.
You are the beautiful soul that brings you back to being whole.
Giving yourself good love makes you someone and baby you count.
Never for one second think that you dont!
