The truth about being Crohns-free is you are never truly free.
You will always worry and apprehend your stresses before letting them take over your subconscious.
I live with that fear everyday.
Josh Blanton
Its the greatest responsibility Ive ever had and the most frightening mission Ive ever had to undertake.
Its absolutely nothing, I think, just a human body being normal.
But what is normal, exactly?
Is a remission-Crohns patient ever truly normal again?
Is normal the day it’s possible for you to finally write N/A under existing health conditions?
Normal is the day you might guarantee it wont come back, no matter what you do.
However, you will never want to be.
You are living it.
You survived what almost took away those basic, human experiences.
You overcame the obstacle that almost stripped you of what it means to be truly alive.
You will no longer need to ask its permission to have a decent day.
Maybe I am forever afraid.
Maybe I will be forever careful.
Maybe I will always take a moment to remember how it felt to be unaware.
But maybe I wont relapse.
Maybe you wont either.
Maybe youll live an entire full life without ever seeing the horrors of its treachery again.
I cantimaginehow exciting it must be to envision a world without a broken you.
Crohns never defined you.
You thought for so long you were defined by the condition that broke and rebuilt you.
Then you came to understand your condition never ever did that for you.
