Its not a term I coined for myself.
Growing up, I was deeply, inherently unchill.
I was emotional and scattered, in a family full of cool-headed and put-together people.
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I had mood swings.
I had anxiety issues.
And then I grew up and chilled the hell out.
I became neurotic about my work.
I became obsessive about my life trajectory.
And so my chill girl persona was born.
It seemed like a good thing, to be chill.
It was what all of the Internet was vying for.
It meant people were comfortable and open around me, and I liked that.
Until I started to realize that the term chill was a double-edged sword.
It turns out, many people equate the term chill to the term unemotional.
And as it turns out, it isnt always fun to be thought of as chill.
Thateverythingjust rolls off your back.
I dont care if we get Korean or Italian food for dinner.
Im down to come to your sex-positive warehouse party that started ten minutes ago.
But I care a fuckinglotabout what matters.
I care about the people in my life and my relationships with them.
I care about my safety and health and well-being.
I am chill about the small, pesky everyday issues because I am deeply unchill about the big picture.
And the same can be said of most chill people.
Call it chill when someone holds different priorities than you do, sure.
Just probably not the same thing as you.
