I remember it all like it was yesterday.
You not fighting for me.
You listening to me cry.
God & Man
You shying away from my light.
You not being the man that I thought you were.
You giving up on us.
You giving up on me.
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Updated 7 years ago,March 18, 2018
I was never the first person you would call.
I was never the first person on your list.
God & Man
I was never enough for you.
I was never the person that you wanted me to be.
I was never your priority.
I think I knew in the back of my mind that you never loved me like I loved you.
I just didnt want to believe it.
Because who wants to believe that you arent enough?
How could anyone want to believe that.
And all you did was give up.
I gave you all of me.
I trusted you.I loved you.
I wasnt even me when I didnt have you.
I wasnt whole without you.
And I guess that was the problem.
I wasnt me without you, but you were just fine without me.
It wasnt fair what you did.
It wasnt fucking fair.
All I ever wanted was for you to let me love you.
All I ever wanted was for you to stay.
For you to not back out.
For you to not back down.
But you walked away.
You walked away from something that could have been so good.
You walked away from something that could have been so god damn beautiful.
You walked away from alovethat could have been so strong and so permanent.
I dont blame you for ending it.
I cant help what your heart wants.
But I blame you for leading my heart on for years.
I blame you for how you ended it.
For growing so cold.
I never thought you had it in you to throw your coolness at my doorstep.
I never thought you had it in you to make me feel so used.
I was never your person.
But you were mine.
I was never yourpriority.But you were mine.
And maybe you never loved me like I loved you.
Maybe after all of this time, theres a reason for all of this.
Maybe when you let me go, you gave me back to my own self.
But maybe youll attend my wedding and stand up before I make my vows.
Maybe youll fight for me.
For once in your life.
Maybe youll one day put me first.
And maybe then, Ill be your first priority.
Maybe in another lifetime.
