And it never works out the way you want it too.
And there isnt a kind enough gesture or anything you’re able to do to change that.
It seems the ones we cant have are always the ones we want the most.
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So you try and hide how you feel only that makes it more obvious.
You dont bother saying anything because you know nothing will come of it.
So you tiptoe around this elephant in the room no one wants to talk about or address.
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But everything eventually comes out and when it does its ugly and emotional and heartbreaking and straight up awkward.
And you feel guilty and ashamed by it.
Because you shouldnt feel the way you do but you cant help it.
You feel jealous towards someone you might not even know.
This jealousy turns you into a version of yourself you hate.
Because it isnt like you to be like this.
You end up almost ruining the relationship.
You feel bad for making their life worse and they feel bad for hurting you.
But time does end up healing the situation.
If youre lucky, if youre really lucky you figure out a way to get past it.
