I am in pain.
They continue trying to open our eyes and pushing us from behind even if they are tired themselves.
However, I dont remember signing a pact with whoever makes people go through this experience.
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And yet, I cant seem to stop.
Or I dont know how to, no one teaches you this.
How do you stop caring even when youve had enough?
When your sink has overflown little by little and so often you wake up drowning?
Where do you find the strength to say No for good and end the chapter?
What happened to creating secure boundaries for yourself, in the process of loving someone selflessly and destructively?
I am in pain.
You cant save someone who doesnt want to be saved.
Sometimes I close my eyes and dream of a better place, far away from here.
My own heaven keeps my heart afloat when everything else is tumultuous.
And this is how pain continues to spread, through love and unclear boundaries.
What and where is the hand that finally drags you out of the water and breaks this cycle?
Hopefully, one day I will learn to leave my heart at the door when it becomes too much.
