I never realize I’m hurting people because I think so low of myself.
I can’t imagine anyone being upset about losing me.
I can’t imagine anyone caring that much about me.
God & Man
I think Im doing you a favor.
Im saving you the trouble of having to hang out with me.
I assume canceling is what you secretly want but would never say aloud.
I never realize Im hurting people because I think so low of myself.
I cant imagine anyone being upset about losing me.
I cant imagine anyone caring that much about me.
God & Man
That is why I might ignore your texts.
I might go weeks without talking to you.
I might claim Im too busy to see you.
I might drop out of your life completely.
I might shatter your heart into pieces but I wont realize it.
In my mind, my absence isnt going to bother you because you could do better.
Youll get over me quickly.
Youll find someone new fast.
You wont even miss me.
My insecurity accidentally makes me abitch.
It accidentally causes me to hurt the people closest to me.
When I fail to answer a text, I dont think anyone is going to notice.
I dont think that I matter.
I dont think I have an impact on the people around me.
I think of myself as invisible.
As someone who people tolerate, but dont actually care about keeping around.
My insecurities convince me that I am unlovable.
It just doesnt make any sense.
I dont feel like I have the power to let anyone down.
To make them feel bad about themselves.
I cant imagine anyone staring at their phone,waitingfor my text to come through.
I cant imagine anyone sitting up in bed, replaying the words I said or failed to say.
I have such low self-esteem that I have trouble seeing how much other people care about me.
I dont think they mean it.
I end up giving them the same kind of pain Ive been working my whole life to avoid.
