I know this is goodbye.
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Updated 2 months ago,March 4, 2025
Last night, I couldnt fall asleep.
I havent really slept in days.
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I wish I told you that then.
That I loved you.
Maybe more than I was ever able to express, more than you know.
So here it is, a final love letter, our second goodbye.
I need you to know that even though things turned bad,youare good.
I wouldnt be okay if I didnt tell you how incredible of a person you are.
Ive never really had faith in a higher power or that there is a plan out there for us.
But after our time together, my heart has changed.
I am always going to remember and be grateful for you.
Because of you, I wasnt alone for what felt like the first time in my life.
You were listening when I tried to make sense of the chaos and confusion of a really strange world.
You held me up when I was trying to start a journey to healing.
I see all my friends and family embracing me, because you showed me how.
You helped me tear down walls I didnt even know I had built.
The ones that filled the empty spaces left in the place of scars.
The ones that kept me hidden.
You strive every day to be better in all of the ways you are already good.
I was excited each day to see what that looked like for you.
I hope, I truly hope, that you felt my love too.
I see you for everything you are, and everything youre going to be.
We made a lot of mistakes.
If I could take all those mistakes back, I would.
But I wouldnt trade a second of knowing you.
I know this is goodbyeour second goodbye.
But if we dont, I want you to hear me say these things one last time.
Be gentle with yourself.
Youre a good man, and I was so lucky.
