I am not doing anything, but I somehow wish I have an excuse to not answer your call.
You were my sunshine, my happy pill.
I did not even know what my life would be like without your presence in it.
Nathan Dumlao
Am I selfish to want a day or two without having to deal with you?
Without having to think about you?
I know in my heart its about to end.
Nathan Dumlao
Asking you how your day was felt like a routine instead of a conversation Im actually interested about.
Your hands became too cold against my skin, your arms around me made me feel uneasy.
I wish there was a way to prepare both of us for this.
Ive thought about this a lot, more than usual than someone should.
I kept convincing myself that maybe this is just a passing phase.
That maybe I am just being the unreasonable girl that I often am… because you are my world.
I want to stop thinking that you WERE my world.
But I cant lie to myself and I cant drag this relationship any further.
I know in my heart,I no longer love you.
So as the ringing came to a stop, Im picking up my phone to return your call.
Im doing us a favor before we both end up in so much pain and hatred towards each other.
