Thats what right means to me, it means honest.
Thats what I see.
I see two people falling into place with one another.
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The reality that the next, most honest step to take is one with each other.
How do we know?
Well, we can feel honesty.
And we can feel its opposite.
I believe our bodies tell us.
I believe they either cramp up or they let us go.
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They free us to come together.
And that coming together is impulsive, not effortful.
In a sense, it is mindless.
Its mindless thanks to the honesty of the connection, thanks to the rightness.
And thats because we arent judging ourselves there any longer.
We arent doubting our interest, our attraction, or the authenticity of our commitment.
And you know what, we arent judging our partner either.
We arent doubting him.
I think what makes this experience so beautiful is its extraordinary rareness.
Its beautiful because it doesnt happen often.
And maybe the reason it doesnt happen more often is because whats actually so extraordinarily rare is our honesty.
Ive always loved deeply.
Ive always wanted to feel it all.
No wonder I cried so much.
A soul connection feels right, an ego connection feels wrong.
No wonder I couldnt hold us together.
Deep down, I didnt want to.
Deep down, I knew I was weak.
I knew my love was temporary.
The truth is, for three years, my body begged me tolet go.
Let go, let go, let go.
And so, what I did for three years is ignore myself.
I ignored myself because I needed the companionship more than I needed my own loyalty.
Of course, this was not the way to go.
Three years later, and I discovered that I had lost twenty pounds.
I didnt even realize it was happening, it just became me.
My own disappearance became me.
Thats what the stress of my own dishonesty did to me.
Thats what the breaking up and making up and breaking up again and again did to me.
Thats how even when I rebelled against my body, my body ultimately got the final word.
Listen to the very thing we know but have been too afraid to hear.
Sometimes what we are scared of the most are the questions themselves.Questionslike, whats wrong?
I used to hear that one cry out to be answered all the time.
Whats wrong with this?
Somethings wrong with this.
Whats wrong with him?
Somethings wrong with him.
Whats wrong with me?
Something has to be wrong with me.
I dont know what more means for you.
I dont know what right means for you.
It may mean conveniently timed.
You want to believe that whats not there can be there.
You want to believe love can be brought about in time.
But thats not what a person needs, thats not what love takes.
What it takes is a feeling.
And without it, there is no vision.
There is no future.
There is only resistance.
